HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN?

Do I see darkness where there is none?

I am wrestling with my perception. The world, to me, looks like it’s on fire. It kinda always has.

And for most of my life that fire was a few miles away. I have had to deal with the ash and the smoke at times, but most of the real burning was over there and I could avoid it.

And most of the time the wind was blowing in a way that left me able to ignore the fire and focus on the pretty things that got my interest.

But now I see the fire surrounding everything.

I used to tell myself that if the fire ever got here I’d be able to deal with it and figure out what to do. But now that it’s all around, I don’t know what to do thats meaningful and effective. It’s so much bigger than me and Im unprepared.

I see slivers of routes to escape the fire, but even that is only for a little while. And the cost of escape is very heavy.

Most of my loved ones don’t see this fire.

They see wisps of smoke and say that it’s under control. They say don’t focus on the fire and its possibilities. So often they are right about things. I am usually happy to defer judgement.

I am having a hard time doing that now, but I have no desire to be right. I don’t want to burn.